The box

i awake to darkness. my cage has been covered. Cramped as i am, i feel about for the door. It is locked, just as it was last night. There is no reason to panic. i feel out past the bars and touch a warm, hard surface. A gentle scratch hints that it is wood.

i glimpse a sliver of light under the edge in one corner and i relax and go back to sleep.

It is still dark when i wake up again. This time i hear Your voice, but i cannot make out what You are saying. There is a man’s voice too. You sound different. You are not being stern with the man, You sound playful. Then i hear You moan.

i try to close out the sounds, muffled as they are. i can picture You with him, but no face comes to mind. i feel hurt, broken, but my cock says otherwise.

You get louder and i hear footsteps on the floor. i try to make myself as quiet as possible. i do not want to interrupt.

The wood scrapes on the floor and You moan again. Another scrape, another moan. The man too, grunts and pants. Scrapes and moans. i can hear You fucking him just inches away.

More scrapes, more moans, more grunts, then a scream. Pleasure. i try not to listen, but i cannot stop. You scream in pleasure. He shouts Your name, Your true name, the name i am not to use. You are Mistress, Ma’am and Goddess.

He has had You. my cock stands firm but i feel dead inside. i hear the door open and close. He has gone.

Light! Bright light fills the cage. i look up to the light. You are peering through a hatch in the top of the box.

“Tongue here!” You command. i obey.

Then You are gone. i wait. my back becomes stiff as my cock becomes limp. Then You return. You sit over the hatch.

Darkness again. i reach out my tongue. You are too far. The bars hurt my face but i stretch. my back is limber again, my cock stiff.

Then bliss as i taste You. But i did not reach. i am tasting him. i am tasting the man who brought You pleasure. His seed fills my mouth, but i do not swallow. i savour this real man.

Light again. Then Your eyes as You close the hatch once more. i hear You walk away across the floor.

i swallow, tasting him fully. i sit broken hearted, nauseous. my cock has betrayed me, my belly is covered in my own cum.

New year, new me, new idea

We are now a week into 2012. This year is the year of Olympics, Apocalypse and a host f other events.

i made some resolutions this year.

1) Lose weight
2) Be happier

These are some nice generics but i have some specifics that i can only post here.

Losing weight is straight forward. Being happier is a lot more complex. This year, i plan to exercise my kink a lot more. i am going to start going to fetish club nights, local munches and generally getting into the community.

i am also going to ask my partner to put me in chastity as an experiment. i have just one concern, drinking with the lads could be a problem (the people i drink with think drunken nudity is a legal requirement). i think i'll suggest it, but ask for permission for release to go out on big weekends...

Any ideas, post a comment.